todays lesson will be brought to you by revenge
my lack of a spine
and the pills i just thought about shoving in my mouth

it began with no bang
your heart was an organ
and your arteries were clear,
my name is nicholas
the alarum bells woke me
and i rose in panic
as i always do
then i blacked out
as i always do

but this day was different

it was a sad little corner i painted myself into

you told me, "if there was ever a time to show any sort of emotion, now would be the time"
"now get up."

fear: what a wasted emotion that drives everything into brick walls all around the world at the convenience of none. Im sorry but maybe we shouldve stopped evolving at single cells. we'd be better off.

Ive been angry at the world for the past two days and i have the right to be this way. I once believed that positive had to balance out negative but now i know thats complete bullshit. fuck what you know. forget the things youve learned in books. the shit youve been brainwashed with and the ads your face is smothered with. Destroy something beautiful. Its not the first time you heard it.

Its only a matter of time.

now for the beehive: a single, honest, bee. when life revolved around honey from birth, he dropped his pickaxe and ripped off the head of his leader with his bear hands. it was said he ate it too, the rest of the hive instantly swarmed around him. what began as revenge for his bloodline, now seemed to be the action that would end his life. but to his supprize they bowed and welcomed their new leader. he gladly took the throne and told his army to destroy the sun. he sat in his lonely throne and finally got the rest he deserved.